Posts

Showing posts from August, 2019

Kayu kitchen

We were having late night supper at Kayu Kitchen We share the same drink You drank from the same straw Yes, we use the same straw Oh no! Indirect kiss! He drove from kangar to changlun to hear me ranting about my bad day at work Thank you "U are always better than who u think u are"

Nervous

Here i am, 15 minutes early. I'm nervous to be honest. When was the last time we meet? Was it when i went to get my certificate from you? But that was like 10 seconds meeting. I just woke up and i just washed my face and still wearing my pyjamas. Then, was it when we ate the 3x spicy ayam goreng mcd at aman central? Seeeee, it was during one of my pre eop leave. Very very long time. No wonder i get nervous. I got butterflies actually. What if we'll be awkward? Why the hell am i here anyway? Seeing you after midnight, in Kangar that i have to drive 30 minutes. I am going crazy. Crazy.
"That's how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can't experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too." ― Kaui Hart Hemmings, The Descendants

This is how we end

This is me, making a post at 1am in the morning. You can call it as late night self conversation. I guess this is how we end. Just so you know, i never wanted this to end. I always want you. I always excited to see your name popped up on my phone screen. I always love to hear your everyday stories - what you ate for lunch, dinner - the name of the HO you whacked - the ridiculous cases referred to you My face expression may look like I was bored, but I can never be bored. You can talk for hours and I still will be listening. I like your one dimple. I like sitting in your car listening to songs. I like having you around. I like having lunch/dinner with you. I like when you text me first. I like the way you make me laugh. I like when you tell me about your plans and dreams. If this the way we end, i want you to know that i am forever grateful to have you in my life. I am forever grateful to whatever you have done. You were there when I told you I failed my assessment.

Failed attempts

I have few times i attempted to confess to you but i chickened out. 1st attempt: 10/6/2019 Mykori Alor Setar The place was noisy, and i chickened out. 2nd attempt: 1/8/2019 We planned to meet during your break hours from locum but you were busy. 3rd attempt: 3/8/2019 I asked can we meet after your work, but i chickened out.