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I couldn't remember when was the last time we hangout. And i was kinda getting nervous to see you. What if nanti it will be awkward? You picked me up at home. You were wearing your blue scrub. We drove to the restaurant. In the car, you told me you've been learning about the rukun islam. You can remember all but one. Solat, puasa, zakat, haji. (you forgot about the 2 kalimah syahadah - the first rukun ><) The food sucks though. But that doesn't matter because i'm eating with you. It was so pedas that you were sweating. You said you're fasting too. Like a proper fasting. Not water fasting, or intermittent fasting you've done before. You asked me how i am doing.  Too focus on me that i didn't even asked you how you're doing and what's been bothering you. My bad. After dinner, we grab an ice cream each. On the way home, you told me someone gave you an English al-quran and you've been reading it. I didn't ask who gave it to you. A girl or a...

I hope you're doing fine

Oncall. Get time to sleep at 1am. I know it was you. But everytime i tried to have a clearer look at you, you will hide your face. But i know it was you. I know it.

Last night you came into my dream. I was in a room, alot of people were there too. The room was like one of those tuition room, in the upper floor of a shoplot. I was sitting at the front, and when it was time to leave, i saw you sitting at the back. You didn't look at me, you didn't say anything to me. When i reached outside, i searched for your car. It was the same CDH but it was blue in colour. I saw you entering your car. You ignored me.  Last night before i went to sleep, i was thinking about you. I guess i missed you. I missed your presence. I missed how i was happy when you're around. And i know you're probably don't ever think about me. 😔

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01.01.2019 My first day in plastic rotation, i was PM shift. You were oncall. It was quite relaxing in the morning after round. Managed to eat nasi lemak for breakfast. Things got hectic after a new case transferred from Kulim arrived. We have to insert femoral catheter, then cvl insertion, which complicated with pneumorthorax thus proceed with chest tube insertion. After all work was done, you said, "eh farah. You haven't eaten anything right? Let's go and eat something." That was my first car ride with you. We drove back to hospital and parked at the forensic area. Before i left, you said, "eh farah. Let me know when you reached home." "I stay at kuarters which is only over there", i said while pointing to the building 500m away. "eh i'm a guy. And you're a girl. Just text me la! Something might've happened on the way" "ok ok 😂😂" "dr ethan, i've reached home. Thanks for the dinner. See you tomorrow....